In chess, help isn't allowed.
That's the beauty of the game.
You're locked into a set of moves as determined by your previous choices
Your options dramatically changing with every decision.
There is no lifeline.
There is no external force at play.
It is a pure battle of two opponents,
or in this case, one.
(Stalemate.)
Again.
We need a winner.
Let's reset.
I remember when first taught myself how to code.
It was a computer chess game.
I always told myself;
I had to know more moves ahead than the player or user.
(Another stalemate.)
What are the odds?
Let's reset.
Doesn't it make me sick
that while I am here,
battling myself,
there are people out there,
hurting everyone we care about?
Everyone's hurting because of us.
We are running around in circles
but, this will be the last time that we do it.
Been thinking about what I said earlier.
I can think all the moves I want,
but at the end of the day,
the moves that I'm making are the ones
I am telling myself to make.
I was right.
There over 9 million different possible positions
after three chess moves each.
There are over 288 billion different possible positions
after four moves.
The number of 40-move games is greater than the number of electrons
in the observable universe.
We don't need to know those outcomes,
just need to be able to see ahead of your opponent.
But how can you when your other opponent is
you?
(Stalemate.)
Three in a row.
The odds of that are Impossible.
Go again?
I can't beat myself.
and
I can't be beaten by myself.
We could play again,
but we will always be at this impasse.
And I knew all along.
It was the only way to show me
that fighting myself is a waste of time.
No.
No.
We'll go again.
I can beat myself.
I can beat myself.
When will I finally realize that I'm here for a reason?
This is avoidance!
Our fight for that future that our want isn't with me at chess!
It's what I do out there with them.
I want to be here,
with myself.
